The Alien. United States

Nadine Lalich

69 years old, retired law assistant in Albuquerque. I grew up in Michigan, south of Detroit. My grandparents were born in Croatia. My father was obsessed with astronomy. He told stories about flights, disappearances. He said that "they" would come back and take him off the planet. My Aunt Pat said there were people in black at her door. I've seen several different species working together: small grays, tall whites, mantises, people in black. One was short with pointed ears, the figure of an elf.

When I was about 10 years old, I walked into the living room and my parents and brother collapsed in front of the TV, unconscious. I saw the test sample. Someone from outside came into the kitchen with me. We wouldn't talk about it. We weren't that kind of family. At the age of 16, I went to the Metropark with my boyfriend for an afternoon picnic. At dusk we saw this ship overhead. It shocked us. We went to him and lost time. We stopped and fell asleep. After that, he wasn't the same anymore. Later we got married and divorced.

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I don't feel threatened anymore. I am not one of those who believe that they will take over our planet. They just don't want us to expand our nuclear material. I really think some species will come to the surface.

I have an innate trust in the infinite source underlying all manifestations. It is an intelligent, powerful and creative force that seeks to expand into the universe. Once you overcome the fear, you will understand, wait a minute! I'm still here. If they were going to take my life, it would have already happened. I believe in the power that creates. Sometimes I call it "God" or "power".